Today is 6 months since Alice was born.
Born because of complications beyond any ones control.
Born at 20 weeks. Tiny and perfect.
Tomorrow is 6 months since Alice died.
Died because of complications beyond any ones control.
She has been dead now longer than she was alive, safe inside me.
A nightmare.
Everyday.
Remembering, grieving, thinking about what should have been.
Thinking about how everything has changed.
But how everyone else has stayed the same.
Knowing that I will always think about her every day.
Wondering if other people will.
Trying to never forget every little detail about her.
Trying to forget the baby urns and coffins at the funeral home.
Thinking about the other babies and their mama's.
Wishing with all my heart that this doesn't happen to any of us again.
Gratefull that I can share her here with people that understand.
Sad everyday that I will never be able to hold her again.
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Warm Whispers - About this blog
On September 11 2008 I delivered our second baby girl at 20 weeks. Alice Buttons died a short time after. This blog is about the death of a baby.
blogs about loss and death
support groups and agencies
- Bonnie Babes Foundation - information and counselling services. The Charity is a national grief counselling organisation and is the only organisation of its type in Australia covering all pregnancy loss issues.
- Essential Baby - see Forums for discussion groups for miscarriage, neonatal death and still birth
- SIDS and Kids - information for bereaved parents
- Teddy Love Club - support and information, including parents stories
10 comments:
Six months. So hard. Keeping you in my thoughts today Rach. And little Alice Buttons. She wont be forgotten around these parts.
Anniversaries are so hard. Alice Buttons will never be forgotten and always loved. Thinking of you both.
My heart breaks for you, Rach. Well, really, for all of us. Six months. I'll be thinking about you and Alice tonight. Much love. Ang
Oh hon. Thinking of you and your precious girl xxxx
Rachel, this is so hard. We just passed 4 months. It seems like a lifetime, yet, a minute ago I held our precious baby in my arms.
Stay strong... we are with you.
Lea xo
I think about your little Alice Buttons quite a lot. I love her sweet name.
Oh Rach, I'm so so so sorry she's not here.
Hugs and more hugs.
xxx
Thinking of you Rach xx
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Doesnt feel as if time should have stopped because our babies' lives did? Holding you and sweet Alice close in my heart today. xoxo
Hugs Rach because there are no words.
XXxx.
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