Tuesday, January 13, 2009

January

I knew this month would be bad. Of course is would. But once upon a time in a land far away January was going to be a wonderful month. It would have been the last few weeks of my pregnancy - I would have been big and round and hot and bothered. I would have spent a lot of time floating in the sea or the pool and sitting on the veranda in the sea breeze.

But you don't always get what you want. The Rolling Stones where right. You certainly don't.

I have a lot to write and I have nothing to write. I am not sure where I am with this. I am finding it hard to put down what I want. I am living in a parallel universe here. One blog is happy and shiny and the other blog is sad. So I think I will write here when I feel I can. I will visit you all often and email and post comments. I am not going. I need you all too much for that.

So January. I don't think it will ever be the same. My eldest daughter turned 3 on the 4th January and my other daughter, my baby, should have been born on the 28th. The month with a happy beginning and a sad end. That's how it goes. Happy and Sad.

I wonder if there will be some more happy?

6 comments:

Hope's Mama said...

I hope you find happy again, I really do.

ezra'smommy said...

I have hope the happy will find it's way back for all of us, eventually. Getting from here to there is the challenge...

Barbara said...

Wishing hard for some happy to come your way.

xxx

tiggy said...

I think it's a different kind of happy, Rach but there will be happy again. Love to you.

Poppy and Mei said...

You'll feel it again, sweetheart.
I promise...XXxx

Barbara said...

Thinking of you right now.

xxx