Alice's due date was this week. 28th January.
I also miscarried a little baby at the end of January last year.
Minnie had her first day away from me at pre-school on 28th January.
This has not been an easy week.
So I cried and felt lonely and thought about all my babies that day. I drove and cried and busted a tyre on the gutter. So I sat and waited for the road side assist people and didn't cry so much. I came home and did housework like a whirlwind so I didn't have too much time to think.
Some beautiful friends sent flowers that I didn't expect. Flowers to remember Alice.
I should not be on this computer writing and reading. I should never have met you all. We should never have met each other. We should be doing very different things.
When Alice was born and died my dearest friend sent flowers and a card that said 'Sometimes life is Shit.'
She was right.